no sleep again

I think I am in the middle of a moral dilemma. or am I? what exactly rules my decision making? It used to be simple. Read the bible and go to church and be told by the vicar how to live a 'good'life. "Be holy" he used to say. what the heck that actually means, I am not sure anymore. Been thinking alot about my heart (that sounds odd- not much point thinking about your heart- surely one 'feels' with the heart...) What does my heart tell me? Should I go with what makes me happy? what feels good? or are these feelings temporary and misguiding and will they lead me up the wrong path? what knowledge do I fall back on as guidance? there are some things that even your closest friend will not be able to tell you. are we back to Jesus? I suppose that would keep it a bit more simple.